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What is my God, then?
"Since,
then You fill heaven and earth, do they contain You? Or, because they do not
contain You, do You fill them, and yet something remains over ? And where do You
pour out what remains of You when the heaven and earth are filled ? Or, indeed,
is there any need that You who contain all things should be contained by any,
since those things which You fill, You fill by containing them ? For the vessels
which You fill do not sustain You, since should they even be broken You would
not be poured out. And when You are poured out on us, You are not cast down, but
we are uplifted; nor are You diluted, but we are drawn together. But, as You
fill all things, do You fill them with Your whole self, or, as all things cannot
altogether contain You, do they contain a part, and do all at once contain the
same part ? Or has each its own proper part-the greater more, the smaller less ?
Is, then, one part of You greater, another less? Or are You wholly everywhere
while nothing altogether contains You?
What, then, are You, O my God-what, I ask, but the Lord God ? For who is Lord
but the Lord? or who is God save our God (Ps. 17:32) ? Most high, most
excellent, most powerful, most omnipotent ; most piteous and most just; most
hidden and most near; most beautiful and most strong, stable, yet contained by
none; unchangeable, yet changing all things; never new, never old; making all
things new, yet bringing old age upon the proud without their knowing it (Job
9:5); always working, yet ever at rest; gathering, yet needing nothing;
sustaining, pervading, and protecting ; creating, nourishing, and developing;
seeking, and yet possessing all things. You love, yet do not burn; are jealous,
yet free from care; You repent, yet do not suffer; are angry, yet serene; You
change Your ways, leaving Your plans unchanged; You recover what You find,
without ever having lost it; You are never in want, while You rejoice in gain;
never covetous, though requiring interest.' That You may owe, more than enough
is given to You; yet who has anything that is not Yours? You pay debts while
owing nothing; and when You forgive debts, You lose nothing. Yet, O my God, my
life, my holy joy, what is this that I have said ? And what does anyone say when
He speaks of You? Yet woe to them that keep silence, seeing that even they who
say most are like the dumb."
St. Augustine, Confessions, 1,3 - 1,4.
Prayer :
O God, You gave St. Augustine an immense thirst for truth. In his search he
found You, who are the Truth. Help us as we struggle with doubts, fears and
untruths to set our lives on You, our Rock and Fortress. We ask this……
By Ateneo Pontificio "Regina
Apostolorum"
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