What is my God, then?
"Since, then You fill heaven and earth, do they contain You? Or, because they do not contain You, do You fill them, and yet something remains over ? And where do You pour out what remains of You when the heaven and earth are filled ? Or, indeed, is there any need that You who contain all things should be contained by any, since those things which You fill, You fill by containing them ? For the vessels which You fill do not sustain You, since should they even be broken You would not be poured out. And when You are poured out on us, You are not cast down, but we are uplifted; nor are You diluted, but we are drawn together. But, as You fill all things, do You fill them with Your whole self, or, as all things cannot altogether contain You, do they contain a part, and do all at once contain the same part ? Or has each its own proper part-the greater more, the smaller less ? Is, then, one part of You greater, another less? Or are You wholly everywhere while nothing altogether contains You?
What, then, are You, O my God-what, I ask, but the Lord God ? For who is Lord but the Lord? or who is God save our God (Ps. 17:32) ? Most high, most excellent, most powerful, most omnipotent ; most piteous and most just; most hidden and most near; most beautiful and most strong, stable, yet contained by none; unchangeable, yet changing all things; never new, never old; making all things new, yet bringing old age upon the proud without their knowing it (Job 9:5); always working, yet ever at rest; gathering, yet needing nothing; sustaining, pervading, and protecting ; creating, nourishing, and developing; seeking, and yet possessing all things. You love, yet do not burn; are jealous, yet free from care; You repent, yet do not suffer; are angry, yet serene; You change Your ways, leaving Your plans unchanged; You recover what You find, without ever having lost it; You are never in want, while You rejoice in gain; never covetous, though requiring interest.' That You may owe, more than enough is given to You; yet who has anything that is not Yours? You pay debts while owing nothing; and when You forgive debts, You lose nothing. Yet, O my God, my life, my holy joy, what is this that I have said ? And what does anyone say when He speaks of You? Yet woe to them that keep silence, seeing that even they who say most are like the dumb."
St. Augustine, Confessions, 1,3 - 1,4.
O God, You gave St. Augustine an immense thirst for truth. In his search he found You, who are the Truth. Help us as we struggle with doubts, fears and untruths to set our lives on You, our Rock and Fortress. We ask this
By Ateneo Pontificio "Regina Apostolorum"